I haven’t blogged for ages first I was busy then, I was sick and lately I’ve just been slack but after my experience a few minutes ago I felt a kick to pick up the pen…uhh the keyboard and smash out a few thoughts.
With Christmas on the way I’ve once again started to feel my mind at war. Do I give into the cultural pressure to purchase everyone a present or am I too lazy to bother and do I just communicate to people it’s because I’m anti-consumerism when honestly this is only a portion of the real reason?
The last few years I’ve found myself going the middle road. I’m too lazy/stingy to go shopping, I do want to buy people I love a present although I’m not prepared to buy them crap. So for partly honorable motives and partly embarrassing ones over the last few years I’ve bought chickens, veggie patches and the like in a developing country and simply handed a card to the relative loves ones saying I’ve purchased them this item in their honour instead of giving them a gift.
It’s kept everyone happy, taken me one step closer away from 100% acting out of laziness and made me feel like I’m doing some good in the world.
Don’t worry I’m not a self righteous goody two-shoes there is some irony in this whole thing keep reading…
So about a week ago I recieved an email from a particular organisation that works with displaced people in Burma. The email was announcing their yearly calendar was out. The calendar contained pictures from the people they help and they said that all proceeds would go to the cause. I thought to myself ahh this could be this year’s easy Christmas answer. It’s justice orientated so will be good for my ego making me feel like a “better person” and I don’t even have to get off my butt to purchase it. So I went to the site and hit “buy”.
A few days later I checked my letterbox and found a big white envelope containing what I thought was “yet another” magazine from this organisation a friend signed me up to receive the mails outs from so I tossed it in the bin.
Another week or so went by which brings me to today. This afternoon I was sorting through emails and I noticed the receipt for the calendars I had purchased but realised I hadn’t recieved them yet. I was just in the process of sending them an email to query whether they had been sent and it hit me, “that white envelope I threw out was from the same organisation I ordered the calendars from”. I quickly ran down stairs to check the bin which had clearly recently been emptied into our skip (larger bin) out the back and it occurred to me if I didn’t want to throw away that 28 bucks I’d spent on the calendars I was going to have to go searching through the rubbish.
I pulled out one, then two, then three bag of rubbish but no luck so I jumped inside of the skip. So I was standing in the skip digging around through all the rubbish then the irony of the situation hit me.
Here I am in bare feet inside of a skip wadding through piles of rubbish to find a calendar depicting children in dire poverty. For a moment I felt I could really relate to these children and once this had passed I felt saddened as I realised the blase manner in which I purchased these calendars. Again the sting of the reality of the poverty that is all around had left me. I’ve always had compassion for those who don’t care about poverty when they have never experienced it but I must admit here I have travelled extensively through poverty stricken nations so my situation is quite different.
It’s sad to realise “still” how much of my life is about serving “me” and “my” needs and to admit how often I want to be seen to be doing the “humanitarian act” rather than actually doing it for the right reaons.
This Christmas I encourage you by all means buy the more socially conscious gifts but take a moment to think about “why” this is important and who you’re really doing it for.
Here are a couple sites to get you going the first one listed is the organisation I bought my calendar’s from.